Omfg, so, I've done it.

And now I'm having some Bad Thoughts.
Like, I went to my, er, portfolio tumblr (if it could be called that) and looked at my old comics, and.
They are better. I'm not sure if they really are, tjo, or if it's just how I see them, but. Thing is, I think the longest I've ever spent on a fancomic was eleven hours in one go, and now this count has increased to... Half a month? Of endless work, two to twelve hours per sessions (usually six to eight), and I don't like the results. I've been so troubled with the number of panels, trying to fit long pages of text and visuals into the very limited number of pages I've been given, not to mention the format itself is very unfamiliar to me - I'm used to thinking vertically and right-to-left when I'm mangaing, not in terms of a single A5 spread, and. Long story short, I had no idea what I was doing and how to proceed, and in the end I ended up paying too much attention to the art and next to none to the story itself Suffice to say, I'd actually put the text to both of the comics last thing, hitting the deadline uncomfortably close, and in such a state where I'm afraid the mistakes were unavoidable - and I still haven't looked at it since, so I've no idea if it's even readable as a story at all. To me, it long since stopped making any sense through the countless reworking of everything I've already pit down, so. Hard to tell if it was a success, in the end. Esoe ially considering I've never put down any guidelines as to what to consider a success in this very case. XD

So yeah, I'm feeling like I've failed, hard. Right now, I'm suffering from shame and my own inadequacy. Still not sure what to do next, too - I've gotten so used to working my butt off daily that now I'm at a loss